My wife had come home from church and told me that a friend of mines sister had died from cancer. My friend had gone over to her sisters house and stayed for a few weeks, praying for her, having communion, cursing the cancer at the root, doing everything a christian knows to do. When she left her and went home, the next day her sister died.
I have had the very same thing happen to me over my life time. I finally went to bed around 3 AM and I couldn't shake the feelings I was having. I felt my friends disappointment and heartache. I laid down in bed and closed my eyes and just ask God this question:
Why God do we do your word, jump through every christian hoop that we have been taught and just watch the exact opposite happen. And why after step out and tell of our family members know that you are a healing God, leave us feeling let down.
The Lord replied to my heart: my ways are higher than your ways, my thoughts higher then your thoughts.
I then said: well that may be but it seems so selfish.
The Lord said to me: Those whom you think you have lost are forever in my care. You have not lost anything for you have the promise of being with them again and this time with out ever parting again. When someone's race is complete how long should they wait to receive their reward. If a runner runs his race and completes it and others on his team want him to wait for them at the finish line, but the chairman of the race is calling him to receive his trophy and take his place, what should he do then. He must go and take his place. Anything else would be selfish on the part of the other team. So who is being selfish me or you?
I replied: I am Lord I just never thought of it that way.
Then he said: Since before the foundations of the world were ever laid I have longed to be with my people. For I love them and gave everything for them and look forward with great anticipation to be with them, but I must first wait for the appointed time.
You must continue to do all of the things you have learned and follow the direction I have laid on your heart. For my word shall go forth out of my mouth it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.
For I have a purpose for everything that happens though at the time you can not see it, but if you wait you will see my glory shine is a greater way than what you first saw with your heart. Faint not, only believe. For I love you and I love your friend, and all of those who have felt this way. For I am the promise and I promise you that they are healed, free, loved, protected, and receiving their reward.
I said: thank you Lord for your wisdom and love for me and I will share this word with all of your children that I can to bring them comfort in distress.
The Lord said: sorrow may last for the night but joy cometh in the morning.
Amen
May this bring you comfort and understanding and may the Lord bless you.
